me singing THE ROSE ~

THE ROSE


Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you, its only seed
It's the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed
That with the sun's love, in the spring
Becomes the rose

末路~

"ah~~~~~~ ah~~~~~~~" i am crying to the sea standing in front of the cliff. just dont know why my road is always harder to go than others. lots of resistance acted on me occured all the time, all the ways, whatever i had done or going to be done. is there any problems with me? i dont think i am the one belonging to this world because of my personality is too simple and sometimes naive always thinking to have a simple life that has strayed. the reality is that cash is king, repute is queen, simple life does not exist. at least i am fail to find it out.i have given many effort so as to over come all the difficulties which were out of my control. trying to avoid meeting them, i turned my way from road into path. trying to defeat them, i armed to fight back. but the result totally exceeded my anticipation. i am now being repulsed to the cliff named " the edge of hopelessness ". i was told to be happy, but doing is not as easy as saying. i am facing those problems is beyond my ability to solve. i realised that living in hong kong is absolutely better than other countries even in the worst situation here is, so ive accepted all the misfortune and satisfied the former life time which of them should be the contract of the happiness. i do know the sun must be back even how strong the storm is. hopefully the bottom had been seem and all the clouds will be gone then.

澳洲朋友~

thursday, i met a new friend, marty, who 17 years old comes from australia. he is a presenter of a online magazine, this time comes to hong kong in order to find some interesting stories about hong kong for filming vedios that can show it to the world. of course, i talked to him in english but haha~ i met marty at 10:00 that morning in 尖沙咀, i sugguested to visit the monkey's hill and the blockhouses. but he had had his plan already. he decided to go to lantau island visiting the tin tain buddha, so i followed his idea to do taking him to the buddha by train and then bus. but firstly, he had to buy tapes for his vedio camera. yes not a digital one. it made me strange, not just this, he only got a few hundred dollars on hand, but he is staying in hotel mira, 2,000 for one night. afterwards we arrived the destination and started finding people to do interviews. foreign tourists were very nice and happy to have interviews. in contract, chinese were not to be willing to do so. after finished all interviews we needed and going to leave there, he suddenly discovered that all our works we had just done were in vain because he had forgot turning the mic on before did interviews. other than this, the battery was run out too. we found a souvenir store there for recharging the battery and we only can be awaiting that nothing we have to do. so as to doing something, i take him to visit "wisdom path 心經簡林" just nearby. but he did not satisfy about this and suggusting to reach the lantau peak. owing to having the same route next month, i refused but encourage him to do so, he took off all the things he wore excpet underwear and then set off. i had waited for him for an hour after he really reached the peak then he went back. next we got back the battery and redo the interviews until the buddha was closed at 18:00. finally, he filmed me a brief introduction appreciating today's help. he got on the bus and i said goodbye to him while the sun was going to be set. it became darken and the temperature had a sharp drop. when i was waiting for the bus at the bus stop under buddha, i felt a bit cold and felt lonely too.

找新朋友~

i found a english forum. it is for expat. trying to make more friends around the world that they have been living in hong kong wanted to join hiking activities, i posted a threads there. owing to the low level of my english, there has no reponse till now. i am disappointed why are they not keen enough to meet some local friends or they don't like hiking. i replanned the following hiking dates of the rest of 2008, so i will update all my threads very soon.

缺席~

believe it or not, i was absent my hiking activity today. it being a fine day, the hiking carried on without me.wishing to go hiking along the top of the mountain called 八仙嶺, which was named because it is consisted of eight pinnacles, you can find lots of natual beauty there. over 20 people signed up to join. it is pity for me missing this time. something is needed to do so i have to leave for weeks, and must come back as soon as i could.

一日三餐食D乜~

usually, i have rice for my dinner, besides of this, sweet potato, bread, asorted beans conjee and noodles are the common chioce for basketfast, lunch and supper. i seldom eat snacks between meals and always eat vegetable much more than meat. meat regularly acompanies with rice for dinner. other time, i often eat without meat. this style has been used in my life for many years, not just because i became poor recently. after i knew how to cook well, i rare went out for diets, food is always made and eaten at home. in generally, too much oil, salt and suger are used in most of restuarants, it is not good for health, both of my body and pocket, since the dishes are not as cheap as i made at home. but also, the higher price is not relative to the better taste, but the rare quantity of production. fruit is other food that i eat everyday. watermelon, pear, cherry, orange are all my favourite fruit, or i would say i love all the fruit except durian. because of its texture really like my avatar.

星期日做義工~

this coming sunday, i am going to be a voluteer in a charity marathon. i work for the organization called 苗圃行動. it is a charity, which with the objective to improve education in china, established in hong kong in 1992. up to end of may 2008, over 800 primary and 16 secondary schools have been contructed or modified and more than 240,000 pupils and students have been subsidized; all of these, in the rural mountainous regions of china, nearly 200 milion have been already spent. low percentage of government outlays are spent all along on the education in china. and by the corruption just like 512 四川 earthquake, we should know that actual spending must be lower. so, i am pleasant to give a hand for helping them indirectly, i believe that education can help to get out of poverty. in fact, i was naive dreamed to go to the rural regions to be one of the teachers and living there simply when i was 22. i would like to educate those people academic and hygiene knowledge, to bring them money for buying machine, to tell them what is really happening in china. but at that time, it was too young for me to make this decision and my mother didn't feel well at the same time(because of my father's death). therefore, it is a dream until now, may be it would be come ture when i became elderly.