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a secret from 1995~ ^^when i was 17 yrs old. i had a very stupid mind that had thought i needn't to have a life longer than 30. why did i have that mind? it is because i beleived that all the wonder and the fantasy will only happen before 30 and a boring life time will come afterwards. i am now 31. i proved that what a fool i was. the world, which i live, has been changed to be more and more beautiful than i had thought. it is growing up with me. and i love it so much. maybe sometimes it is no heart and creul, but i realize that those are just contrast with how good my life is going on~ tomorrow will be better than ever~
1/2 recovery~ ^^i have half recovered from the finanical crisis. in the past year, i was hurt so much, not beacuse of losing all the money, but because of the side-effect of losing them. though always thinking about that money is not vital importance; love is. i was still being depressed during that period. i lost more than a million in only a few months, meanwhile, got a debt also over a million. later, i was dismissed from my job because i have an argument with my working partners. and...... i had nothing on hand, included had not any courage to love anyone, basically, to develop my own family. all of my dreams were broken in the minute...... however unfortunate i was, it seemed past. in the recent months, thanks a lot to the global markets' rebound, i am now not a negative equity anymore. although i've just got back a little than the loss, i feel so happy and free since i finally learnt so much and overcame the cirisis. at the worst while, maybe it is just small change of somebody, but it's the total for me. my life have been changed over by losing them. in the future. i hope that HSI goes to around 21,000pts., then i may cash all the stocks and possibly get back enough captial to open a small shop for selling food. it is the first step for my simple life.
will i certainly find you~ ^^nowaday, i do not doubt that money is very important. it is used to buy food, house and needs. most of people who living in town chase all the time to become the rich in order to satisfy themselves more than everything. eventually they ignore their health and families, sometimes lose their life. for me, i won't put money in too high priority. there are too many things should be treasured by us rather than be rich men, and never be counted by money; by our heart. but the reality tells me that i am completely wrong - i am still alone. when will i find my ture love's care and support which they are my desires to have. maybe she is somewhere, far away from me or just close behind me; all is arranged by destiny. unless there is a miracle, it won't be come ture. i can't find myself anything which is worthy of a girl to love. just can't believe if there is someone loves me...... can only wish upon a star~
my dear~ ^^have you ever seen someone who is you love at first sight? if you haven't got yet. don't panic! it means the one haven't appeared at present, but you will certainly find her/him in one day. for me, i will say that it is amazing. when i first met her. i was deeply attracted by her - her face, her smile and everything she said. it is really unforgetable when i reached for her hand. she is so attractive a girl i have ever seen that has embedded somewhere in my mind. she is too beautiful for me to love, so i can only love her in my imagine since i know that i would never be the one she wanted. but i would like be a guardian angel to protect her if she needed. bless her has a good life...... i would like to know what will you do when someone says "i love you" to you? it was about two decade ago when i was studing in form 1. a girl asked me if i would like to be her boyfriend. though it was long ago, i am now still remember that the moment i refused her because i didn't love her and had liked another girl. today, they are both married, and i...... haha, time is flying with no doubts, every thing likes just happened......
mother's love~ ^^some say mother's love is the greatest love in the world. i quite agree with them. some days before, i saw a news on a newspaper. it said that during a couple disputing with each other. the husband lost his mind, and then picked up a pair of scissors to stab at their daughter. the wife quickly hugged her tight to protect her. therefore her body was stabbed more than 30 times hits by the crazy husband. she was finally sent to hospital and situated seriously. she have done a example to prove that how great of mother's love is. i can also find the same love from my mother. i know that she loves her children very much. so i have to take the responsibility to look after her after my father died in 2000. she is really a good mother, but too stupid. she often ignore our advice, sometimes doing things opposite of them in purpose too. my mother is now about 60 years old. she was born in mainland china. my grandma told me that when my mother was 5, japanese invaded china, so as to avoid the japanese's attack. my grandfa moved to cheung chau to settle down first, my grandma brought her and her elder sister ran after, then they have been living here for over 50 years.