what you mean to me

i dont want be your brother any longer! i would much rather be the bear! if only i were, my life would be perfect! after seeing the photos your sent me yesterday. what a hard feeling came up. oh, they are showing him holding you in his arm!! in the frist time we met, somehow i was attracted deeply by you. but later you appeared that you didnt fond of me because of your missing for the event and also your promise. it is a long time i havent seen you. even a photo you didnt send me. how deep i miss you! by now, you have sent me four. what do you want to indicate? to show me it is not worth waiting for you or want me to celebrate your matching heartily? sorry, i am afraid i cant. i admit this is my fault that didnt tell you i love you. it was because of my finanical problem which caused me getting nothing beside of debt. how can i tell you the fact!! although now is getting much better, it seems too late...... i was impacted by the crisis and just come out from the worst being recovery. you are so cruel. your email, i would say, is like the hope terminator. you have made me depressed again. what should i say now?! what can i do.....? look into my eyes, you will see what you mean to me. you know its true. everything i do, i do it for you!! ill love you forever and a day!